anorexia/bulimia
i was mostly bulimic, but had anorexic tendencies. this is my perception of the eating disorders… i basically felt that whatever I ate (even if it was fruit or vegetables) would somehow ruin my body and make me gain weight. i would hate myself every time I ate.
from behance.net
self worth
fuck labels, I’m who I am and I try not to let anyone hide my true self.
Save me.
… From myself.
Wintergirls
By Laurie Halse Anderson
Flat tummy.
Bones
Living Skeleton.
Another page turns on the calendar, April now, not March.
………
I am spinning the silk threads of my story, weaving the fabric of my world…I spun out of control. Eating was hard. Breathing was hard. Living was hardest.
I wanted to swallow the bitter seeds of forgetfulness…Somehow, I dragged myself out of the dark and asked for help.
I spin and weave and knit my words and visions until a life starts to take shape.
There is no magic cure, no making it all go away forever. There are only small steps upward; an easier day, an unexpected laugh, a mirror that doesn’t matter anymore.
I am thawing.
That moment when you lost weight healthily turns into losing more weight unhealthily…
